I just watched The Wedding Singer. For the first time. Sniff. I loved the show, totally loved it. As many people know, i am, strangely enough, a guy that actually LOVES romantic comedies. Sweet Home Alabama, How To Lose a Guy in 10 days, You've Got Mail, A Walk to Remember... these top my list of all time favourite movies. I read romance novels(no, no... not the ones with a topless guy and a sexy girl on the cover. the ones with much less sex and much more story. hate those that just move from sex scene to sex scene. booooring). I also read almost everything under the sun, but i like romance novels. I have no idea why. For some reason strange reason(unknown to myself) i enjoy torturing myself watching them movies and reading them books. Other guys go for the action, the horror, and them other movies guys love so much. But deep down, i still like romantic comedies best of all, even if it does make me feel sad after that.

But back to the movie. So the plot is nothing great, so the girl doesn't look all that chio(she's drew barrymore, after all), and i'm not a big fan of that Adam Sandler guy. But i was hooked on the show the moment it started, and absolutely loved the song he sang to her in the end. Something about growing old with you. I was like... woah. What the hey.

See, i'm turning 21 this year. Yeah... entering adulthood, sadly. Kiss them teenage carefree years goodbye. I have yet to have a girlfriend. So far, none of my crushes have worked out. Some crushes have lasted much longer than others, going into more than two years if you believe it or not. A crush on the same girl for more than two years? Never asking any girl out? Everytime i watch a romantic comedy, i start to think, hey, who's the one with the BIG L on the forehead? I long for someone to love me romantically, as i see the leads fall in love. I'm like... hey... i want that... i want to grow old with someone. I don't want some one night stand... what's the point in that? The same thing happens when i read novels with romance in them. Then i start feeling all bad for myself again. The loser who has liked the same girl for years(who probably never has, and will never think of me as any more than a friend), who has liked so many girls in the past but never done anything about it...

But then i think again. You know, is that even important? I'm sure God has someone planned for me, and i doubt its even the girl i like at the moment. And even if he doesn't, to what does that matter? Right now, without the distraction of a girlfriend, i already am so busy. Being extremely active in church, if i DID have a girlfriend, i would never be able to spend as much time on God's work as i am now. Neither would i be spending as much time with God. Getting a girlfriend now would not be productive, it just wouldn't be good for me. God will send me one when i'm ready, if ever.

So... sure, having a girlfriend would rock. Honestly, its not all that hard to find a girlfriend. All it needs is a little pampering, sweet talking, and probably i can hook up someone. But i don't want to hook up with just anyone. It would make me happy. I want a committed, convicted Seventh-Day Adventist who loves God more than anything else. Now a girl that THAT is a lot harder to find, much less chase, for the very same reason that her priorities will be totally different from everyone else. But even if i did find one now, it would not do me any good, it would not do my spiritual life any good, it would not do God's work any good.

Is it wrong to want a girlfriend? No.
Is it wrong to have one now? Yes.
If the girl i liked actually become open to the idea, would i actually start dating now? No. But i sure would be struggling with it more than anything else!

So, does not having a girlfriend now make a a loser?

Nah, it makes me more or a winner, i'd say!